Discombobulated: To be thrown into a state of confusion.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Everything But

I'm very lucky, I've got a friend, a very dear special friend who is Everything But a lover to me.

He knows how to make me smile, he knows how to make me happy when everything is just too hard to deal with. He's the person I turn to when I hear good news or bad. He's Everything But when it comes to a relationship. And he feels the same towards me, I know he does, he has proved it time and time again. He shares the best moments and the worst and everything else in between with me.
I have been guilty of comparing other men to him and often find they don't match up which is strange as there has never been anything but love and affection between us. And also unfair, as our connection has been built up over time, bricks of shared memories have been laid down as a firm foundation.
He always finds something to criticize about any man I'm ever interested or involved with. But I know he wants me to be happy, to be loved.
We could never 'be' together as a couple for many reasons, one major one being his lack of interest in non Asian women! The other just as important but still impossible, is his lack of interest in monogamy.
But as a day to day confidant and person to turn to, he's the one significant person who is there for me, no matter how bad a mood I am in and has been consistently for the last 6 years. Which lets face it, is longer than some marriages.

We are constantly asked by others why we are not together, even his latest girl friend sees that there is a spark, a connection between us but we are not, nor have we ever been.
Maybe one day when we are both happy in a relationship with other people we might grow apart from each other, safe in the knowledge that we have some one else to turn to, but until that day we are both there in each others heart with a warm touch, just in case its needed

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