Floating

I've found myself in a situation where the man I am interested is in a 'difficult' situation, he has told me he is interested in me, the possibility of a future together but he isn't able to walk towards me yet, he has issues, he has unresolved feelings for another woman and we both know that 'we' wouldn't stand a chance until that situation had been cleared up, one way or another.
Sometimes it feels like he is hedging his bets, but that is possibly my insecurities at play.

He said: I am one huge floating bundle of unknown....... Sorry you have to float with me.

I said: No, that's not true, I don't HAVE to float with you, I am choosing to float with you, but at any point I can let go and when this becomes too much for me to cope with, then I will, before you hurl us both over the waterfall into the whirling vortex that will smash me into pieces ......... Well at least I HOPE I will know when to let go of the idea of us...... but I'm not there yet. I'm here.

And I hope it turns out that I will know when to walk away and have the strength to do so. Yes I'm soft and squishy on the outside but deep inside me I have a core of self preservation that I hope is strong enough to deal with the blows that life throws my way.