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Thursday, January 20, 2005

A Users Guide

I've been thinking recently about how much I share here online, seeing the map over there on the sidebar just re enforces how wide spread are the readers that drop by this site.

But there are some people who I may well meet in real life, I've already been promised to be shown the high life by Wanbro when I go up to China in a few months time.
There is talk of another Blog meet by Simon and Spirit Fingers where at I might actually introduce myself at this time rather than just turn up for fleetingly like last time and leave without telling anyone who I am.
I've already promised to take Kate out for a couple of drinks on her arrival in Hong Kong.

But what if I were to meet someone I wanted to date, should I tell him about this site? But to keep it a secret from him would allow me to wonder aloud at how things were progressing.
How strange it would be though that he would know my insecurities and self doubts long before they would usually pop up in conversation. But then, wouldn't that just cut out the crap, if he were to visit the site and see what I'm really like wouldn't our relationship be built on honesty rather than just the 'front' one tries to put on when meeting someone new, the funniest, sexiest, kindest image that we want to project. And if he wanted to pursue a relationship with me inspite of what he had read, wouldn't that show that he wasn't just interested in a shallow shared interest between the sheets. Not that I don't rate a shared interest between the sheets, but I've reached a point where it has to be more than that to make it worthwhile for me. Actually thats not true, I've always felt it had to be more than that to make it worthwhile, but sometimes in the past I've been a little distracted perhaps.

Some one that posted on here a long time ago, whom I chatted with on IM for a little while asked the question, what was the reason I started this site, well I started it as a means to clear out my head, I feel better getting things down on paper, out in the open, than I do if I keep issues bottled up. I need to be able to vent and stomp my foot. I can't do this in my daily life, but I can online.

And if that makes this a useful users guide to Mia, for someone I am dating then I think that's ok. For me, it's all about honesty.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well, I don't know about the high life... but I'm sure we can go and nibble some duck's gizzard or something.

Wanbro

Spirit Fingers said...

I'd only tell him if it was a serious relationship. Or I was using his computer regularly to blog.
So what did you see at the meet last time when you were fleetingly there? Did everyone look normal?

Mia said...

Hmmm define 'normal'.