Not desperate, not yet.

I've had a few emails about one of my most recent posts, most of them saying nice kind things but a few telling me I should

"Stop sounding so desperate men can smell it a mile off. No wonder no one wants to shag you"

and others in a similar vein. Well the thing is that I'm not desperate for a child right here and right now, perhaps in a few more years my body might send out some 'tick tock tick tock' noises of its own, but at the moment its fine. Sure I have my moments where I see parents with children and think that is a 'somewhere' I'd like to be one day.
I did a while ago talk about going down the 'go it alone' route, but soon dismissed that as I know I'd want the father of my child to want to be the father of my child, not just a donor.
While I applaud the many women that go it alone by choice and know that if a situation turned out that I had to be a single parent I would do my utmost to provide for my child in everyway I don't want to purposely make that choice before the child were to even be conceived.
Yes I want to be a mother but that's not an all consuming song playing in my head.

That is all just part of the bigger picture, others say it much better than I could but quite honestly I am so much more at ease with the world when not alone. I'm happy to live my life as it suits me but I want to be able to take someone else's wishes and feelings into consideration, I want to care for some one, to nurture and love him and for him to love me back.

I'm in the midst of a huge influx of visitors at the moment, literally 6 weeks of different friends family and loved ones staying with me. And I love it. I love the simple acts of having to do a proper shop at the supermarket, to make sure that there is enough milk and bread in for more than one person. Saying to someone over breakfast "what shall we do this evening? Do you want to go out for a drink or have a quiet night in?". Having dinner cooked for me in my own home. I'm relishing in the quiet moments when I'm home all alone when my guest has met up with other friends and I can lay on the sofa and read or blurf away a couple of hours. I don't NEED someone around me all the time, but I do very much like having someone in my life who wants to include me in his.


Update .......... I've just had 3 offers via email for shags. *grin*
OK, now bring on the rest of what this Mia needs.